Departures

Unele momente in viata parca iti umbresc linistea, iar altele desi sunt facute pentru a te ingropa in disperare, criza de timp, lucruri marunte, dar esentiale, de facut, griji, stress, nu fac decit sa-ti lumineze calea si sa iti arate incotro trebuie s-o apuci.
Cind vine momentul sa pleci pentru prima data de acasa pentru a-ti construi o viata unde crezi ca vei fi mai multumit, te uiti totusi ce lasi in urma ta. Plinsete, dureri, controverse, certuri, situatii neplacute... dar si prieteni, momente frumoase, in care te-ai simtit in siguranta, familia care de bine de rau ti-a facut un ceai cind ai fost racit si ti-a suportat crizele cind ai trecut prin momente de indoiala fata de tine insuti sau fata de toti cei pe care ai crezut ca ii cunosti si te-au invatat pina la urma cum sa nu mai ai incredere in vorbe, lasi in urma liceul, scoala generala, parcurile in care te-ai plimbat sau ai chiulit, barurile in care te-ai plimbat nopti la rind, rind pe rind, in fiecare weekend, prietenii de familie care ti-au dat o piine cind n-ai avut, computerul pe care ai facut nopti albe doar ca sa vorbesti cu anumite persoane ce ti-a facut placere...

Vine acel moment in viata cind iti iei amintirile intr-o cutie memorabila, trei haine intr-o valiza, speranta in buzunare si pur si simplu pleci. Asa.

T'was about time

"There she is, standing in front of me with her soul naked, bared through her glistering chocolate eyes. And there she goes, she dances the world away, she sings with her hands and draws with her lips the notes of my world. Swinging from side to side, she lives... oh, man, does she live! Like I could never live, she makes the Air and Fire vibrate, makes the Water listen to her Soul command, she could decompose your personality, your principles, in a split second and rebuild you in the next.

Man, she lives... like I could only learn to in a thousand lives...

Don't wish to posses her, you don't stand a chance, try just to understand and maybe you'll get a shot at this miracle, maybe you'll get a chance to live.

Breathe... "

he said, and then walked his fears to the door and wished them a safe trip.

De la cimpie la munte

M-am intors din descoperirea Rominiei cu 50 bani si inima in buzunar, poze in aparat, apeluri si mesaje in telefon, amintiri si cam atit. N-aveam nici bani sa ajung pina acasa de la gara. Si credeam ca greul incepe odata cu planurile de impachetare a lucrurilor pentru a le trimite in noul meu oras de resedinta incepind cu... curind. Stiam ca trebuie sa fiu adunata si stiam ca nu-mi va greu, dar cind iti vine un par in cap din parte tuturor, iar seara cind te bagi in pat parca nici patura cu care te acoperi nu te mai vrea aproape, te respinge subtil ca un ciocan cu raceala specifica unei nopti seci de ianuarie... ajungi la concluzia ca esti bun de tap ispasitor pentru probleme psihice ale tuturor, plus ale tale egal un fel de dezastru.
Stateam intr-un picior pe sirma ghimpata la inaltimea Virfului Moldoveanu, iar din laterale se aruncau cu caramizi si rosii in mine, caramizile ma nimereau din plin, rosiile nu stiu, nu le mai simteam. Echilibru? Echilibru... "Aduna-te! Nu te pierde, lupta, lupta cu tine insati caci ai ales acum o vreme si nu poti da inapoi, e mai bine asa, e mai bine pentru toata lumea! Dar ei nu vad... ei nu vad si pe tine te doare... si ce daca? Dati-mi-le mie caci eu le pot duce :) Le voi duce pentru voi si veti fi bine si eu voi fi doar."
Acum imi culeg bucatile incinse inca de suflet de pe jos precum fisii de epistola arse cu ciuda gindurilor ce nu-ti lasa noptile in pace si le pun la loc, de unde au cazut, si le redau frumusetea. O merita dupa o perioada atit de lunga de raceala, o merit si eu.

"I'm left alone putting together bits of my heart from the ashtray of my soul. Maybe I would have needed someone to hold me a lighter for the next cigarette, but I'll light it myself since there's nobody there."

No Hard Feelings

No one said it would be easy, nobody is a saint, not even you.

I just lost my place again, because of one of the million stupid things I do(LE in 2012: little did I realise at the time that you "makin' me believe that it was always somthing that I'd done"). 

And I regret it somehow but I can't regret the past, even if the past means two days ago. I can understand stubborn, I can understand feeling hurt, I can understand love turning into hate or the sky falling on my head because of me, but I can't understand not understanding and not seeing; seeing all the things that were put in front of you on a silver platter and then kicking them away because the platter had a little rust on it. I ignored some rust myself, the platter that was put in front of me actually, because I liked the things that were offered on it. Congrats for earning a place in my twisted heart no one reaches. Congrats for trying to lose it, after a while it will fail but you'll think it worked. Congrats. And if I'm all rust to you, then I have nothing more to say but the three simple words + no matter what.

Intelligent People Doing Silly Stuff

1) Cum te simti azi? David Guetta feat Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over (adica sentimentoasa, dar nu in sensul plangacios)
2)Vei ajunge departe in viata? U2 - I'll Go Crazy If You Don't Go Crazy Tonight (da :)) )
3)Cum te vad prietenii tai? Hooverphonic - One Way Ride (totul sau nimic)
4)Te vei casatori? Hurts - Better Than Love (Da :)) )
5)Care este cantecul care iti defineste cel mai bun prieten? Adele - Make You Feel My Love
6)Care este povestea vietii tale? Casio kids - Fot I Hose (Axemax Remix) (long story short - you don't wanna know :)) )
7)Cum a fost viata de liceu? Jem - They (the dirty bastards xD )
8)Poti avansa in viata? The Temper Trap - Down River (daca e down river, e evolutie)
9)Care este cel mai bun lucru la prietenii tai? ATB - One Fine Day (they make me feel problem-free)
10)Ce te asteapta in week-end? Adele - Cold Shoulder (auch)
11)Ce cantec te descrie? ATB - Renegade (clar, mnoh, acuma ce sa te astepti, mnoh mnoh)
12)Ce cantec iti descrie bunicii? :))) Collectif Métissé - Laisse-toi aller Bébé (Radio Edit)
13)Cum decurge viata ta? Laleh - Live Tomorrow (da, cam asa)
14)Ce cantec se va canta la inmormantarea ta? Culcha Candela - Eiskalt (aaa... good with me)
15)Cum te vad ceilalti? Caribou - Bowls (nice image...)
16)Vei avea o viata fericita? ATB - Long Way Home (eh, va fi fericita oricum)
17)Oameni te doresc in secret? David Guetta - Joan of Arc (dinaia truli)
18) Cum te poti face fericit? David Guetta - Winner of the Game (:> need i say more)
19)Ce ar trebui sa faci cu viata ta? Morcheeba vs Chemical Brothers - Don`t do it again [ripper remix] (s-o 'dansez' if you get me)