De la cimpie la munte

M-am intors din descoperirea Rominiei cu 50 bani si inima in buzunar, poze in aparat, apeluri si mesaje in telefon, amintiri si cam atit. N-aveam nici bani sa ajung pina acasa de la gara. Si credeam ca greul incepe odata cu planurile de impachetare a lucrurilor pentru a le trimite in noul meu oras de resedinta incepind cu... curind. Stiam ca trebuie sa fiu adunata si stiam ca nu-mi va greu, dar cind iti vine un par in cap din parte tuturor, iar seara cind te bagi in pat parca nici patura cu care te acoperi nu te mai vrea aproape, te respinge subtil ca un ciocan cu raceala specifica unei nopti seci de ianuarie... ajungi la concluzia ca esti bun de tap ispasitor pentru probleme psihice ale tuturor, plus ale tale egal un fel de dezastru.
Stateam intr-un picior pe sirma ghimpata la inaltimea Virfului Moldoveanu, iar din laterale se aruncau cu caramizi si rosii in mine, caramizile ma nimereau din plin, rosiile nu stiu, nu le mai simteam. Echilibru? Echilibru... "Aduna-te! Nu te pierde, lupta, lupta cu tine insati caci ai ales acum o vreme si nu poti da inapoi, e mai bine asa, e mai bine pentru toata lumea! Dar ei nu vad... ei nu vad si pe tine te doare... si ce daca? Dati-mi-le mie caci eu le pot duce :) Le voi duce pentru voi si veti fi bine si eu voi fi doar."
Acum imi culeg bucatile incinse inca de suflet de pe jos precum fisii de epistola arse cu ciuda gindurilor ce nu-ti lasa noptile in pace si le pun la loc, de unde au cazut, si le redau frumusetea. O merita dupa o perioada atit de lunga de raceala, o merit si eu.

"I'm left alone putting together bits of my heart from the ashtray of my soul. Maybe I would have needed someone to hold me a lighter for the next cigarette, but I'll light it myself since there's nobody there."

No Hard Feelings

No one said it would be easy, nobody is a saint, not even you.

I just lost my place again, because of one of the million stupid things I do(LE in 2012: little did I realise at the time that you "makin' me believe that it was always somthing that I'd done"). 

And I regret it somehow but I can't regret the past, even if the past means two days ago. I can understand stubborn, I can understand feeling hurt, I can understand love turning into hate or the sky falling on my head because of me, but I can't understand not understanding and not seeing; seeing all the things that were put in front of you on a silver platter and then kicking them away because the platter had a little rust on it. I ignored some rust myself, the platter that was put in front of me actually, because I liked the things that were offered on it. Congrats for earning a place in my twisted heart no one reaches. Congrats for trying to lose it, after a while it will fail but you'll think it worked. Congrats. And if I'm all rust to you, then I have nothing more to say but the three simple words + no matter what.

Intelligent People Doing Silly Stuff

1) Cum te simti azi? David Guetta feat Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over (adica sentimentoasa, dar nu in sensul plangacios)
2)Vei ajunge departe in viata? U2 - I'll Go Crazy If You Don't Go Crazy Tonight (da :)) )
3)Cum te vad prietenii tai? Hooverphonic - One Way Ride (totul sau nimic)
4)Te vei casatori? Hurts - Better Than Love (Da :)) )
5)Care este cantecul care iti defineste cel mai bun prieten? Adele - Make You Feel My Love
6)Care este povestea vietii tale? Casio kids - Fot I Hose (Axemax Remix) (long story short - you don't wanna know :)) )
7)Cum a fost viata de liceu? Jem - They (the dirty bastards xD )
8)Poti avansa in viata? The Temper Trap - Down River (daca e down river, e evolutie)
9)Care este cel mai bun lucru la prietenii tai? ATB - One Fine Day (they make me feel problem-free)
10)Ce te asteapta in week-end? Adele - Cold Shoulder (auch)
11)Ce cantec te descrie? ATB - Renegade (clar, mnoh, acuma ce sa te astepti, mnoh mnoh)
12)Ce cantec iti descrie bunicii? :))) Collectif Métissé - Laisse-toi aller Bébé (Radio Edit)
13)Cum decurge viata ta? Laleh - Live Tomorrow (da, cam asa)
14)Ce cantec se va canta la inmormantarea ta? Culcha Candela - Eiskalt (aaa... good with me)
15)Cum te vad ceilalti? Caribou - Bowls (nice image...)
16)Vei avea o viata fericita? ATB - Long Way Home (eh, va fi fericita oricum)
17)Oameni te doresc in secret? David Guetta - Joan of Arc (dinaia truli)
18) Cum te poti face fericit? David Guetta - Winner of the Game (:> need i say more)
19)Ce ar trebui sa faci cu viata ta? Morcheeba vs Chemical Brothers - Don`t do it again [ripper remix] (s-o 'dansez' if you get me)